Sep 01 2010

If MLK’s dream had been realized, Michael Jackson might still be alive

Category: Humanitarian, Justice, MJ Quotes, PhotosSeven @ 3:51 am

The Eyes of Innocence

Dear Michael - The Eyes of Innocence

Yes. I truly believe that. A cacophony of events leading up to and surrounding Michael’s birthday brought all this together for me and I can make that statement with a great deal of certainty, judging by what I’ve seen regarding the way he was treated in his life, and by what I still see now in the current political, legal, and social landscape.

Besides Michael’s impending birthday, there were other things swirling around, which mixed current political events with our nation’s civil rights history in some very untoward, abusive, disingenuous, putrid, and sneaky ways. It made me realize how very little has changed when it comes to true racial equality and the civil rights movement.

First, there was Glenn Beck and the Tea Party’s attempt at “reclaiming the civil rights movement” on August 28th, the day before Michael’s birthday. Now, Beck claims he didn’t know that this was the 47th anniversary of MLK’s “I Have a Dream” speech. Once he found out he stated that his intent then was to “reclaim” the movement – a movement that he and the Tea Party initially had absolutely nothing to do with (thus “reclaiming” it is nonsense) and which we are very much not done with, thankyouverymuch. No, Mr. Beck you may not have it and you will not have it.

Whether Beck knew or did not know that August 28th was such an anniversary, his ignorance and/or arrogance is in my opinion astounding but nonetheless befitting a well-to-do white mouthpiece for a racist movement which is busily fomenting the kind of ignorance, hatred and division we’d hoped to be done with by this time in our history – and which Michael Jackson fought against all his life.

I share below a quote from another article about another anniversary on August 28th which many people are not aware of:

What people have not recognized is that Dr. King’s 1963 speech itself fell on another significant anniversary–the August 28, 1955 lynching of Mother Mobley’s son, Emmett Till, who was accused of whistling at a white woman on his visit with relatives in the Mississippi Delta.

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Eight years ago, I visited her on the anniversary of Emmett’s lynching. I brought flowers because, well, it just seemed like the right thing to do. She was despondent and told me that people always called her on the 28th of August. They would say, “You know what day this is, don’t you?” And she looked at me deeply with eyes that long ago had run out of tears and said, “I don’t need reminders. I can never forget this day.”

She would want us to remember, too. Not just the event. But its meaning.

That is why Mother Mobley, a Chicago teacher who mined her grief for a mission in life, would see Saturday’s collision of symbols as a teachable moment. She understood the politics of difference, the politics of place. As an African American whose family had barely escaped Southern atrocities, she recognized the potential pushback when you stepped out of place. Like whistling at a white woman. Or living in the White House.

So she would see parallels between then and now. She could interpret the code, the messages of hate and racism that get embedded in the vocabulary of patriotism. Years ago, she tuned into what we all now recognize, in the parlance of Politico.com, as “dog whistle politics,” that perfect pitch of the rabid right.

-SOURCE: http://www.huffingtonpost.com/chris-benson/beckapalooza-tramples-on-_b_696715.html

Second, there are the Koch Brothers. These two very rich white guys are major funders of the Tea Party movement, though they don’t like it when their names are mentioned or seen in connection with it. Judging by the blatantly racist signs we’ve seen them waving at their rallys, I guess I don’t blame them for wanting to keep their support a secret. They have been by far one of Obama’s biggest detractors on virtually every issue, having waged a veritable political war against him since he took office. They covertly fund various think tanks such as Americans for Prosperity and the Cato Institute and many others, though their names are difficult if not impossible to find in connection with those organizations – and that is just the way they like it. These guys own oil companies, carpet manufacturers, paper towel brands, and many other corporate interests. Much like the Carlyle Group – they are one of the most influential owners and controllers of our society and political discourse you’ve never heard of. They’ve paid for busses to bus people to Tea Party events such as the one last Saturday, and one of the Koch brothers himself spoke at Beck’s rally along with Americans for Prosperity’s President Tim Phillips. Much more detail on these guys, their background, their covert political tentacles, and their modus operandi can be found here: http://www.newyorker.com/reporting/2010/08/30/100830fa_fact_mayer?currentPage=all

Third, I watched in horror as Mr. Alan Simpson of the “Deficit Reduction Commissionrailed nastily about Social Security and those who depend on the program. His remarks seemed very typical of an out-of-touch well-cared-for politician who will never have to depend on that program for survival. What was worse than what this guy said was what didn’t happen after he said it. It took less than 24 hours for Shirley Sherrod to be ousted from her job within that administration – no questions asked – based upon a chopped-up, taken out-of-context YouTube video created by a notorious racist which was meant to frame and target Ms. Sherrod (and whom she is now rightfully suing). But Mr. Simpson got to keep his job – no questions asked. Racism? Sexism? Or just “politics“? Hmmm…

Fourth, various stories I picked up on during the week: An article I read recently in an independent paper talks about ‘backlash‘ – that seeing a black man in the White House is something that some people simply cannot take. I think there’s a lot to that, unfortunately.

Another story I got wind of was one where a Muslim man helped save some of his neighbors after Katrina in New Orleans. His “reward” for his kindness to his neighbors was being targeted by police, arrested for no reason other than being Muslim, being accused of being a terrorist and working with Al Queda, being put in prison for no reason other than he was Muslim, and denied communication with his wife and children the entire time.

This is just exactly the kind of ignorance, hatred, and fear Michael railed against, sang against, and fought against all his life.

We must learn to live and to love each other before it’s too late. We have to stop the prejudice, we have to stop the hating, we have to stop living in fear of our own neighbors.

-Michael Jackson

And lastly, while threats against a newly elected president usually increase right after an election, Barack Obama was the first black president ever elected. Because of that and because racism is still rampant in the United States, the threats against newly-elected President Obama spiked a shocking %400 percent or so. This is unprecedented in the history of the United States. Anyone harboring the idea that just because we managed to elect a black President, that racism is over, or that things have even improved that much, had better think again. This very obviously is far from the truth.

While there were other factors such as individual and corporate greed, pure jealousy, typical corporate parasitism and abuse (the modus operandi of disaster capitalism), and sheer competition for power and money, the destruction of Michael Jackson and his life is also tied inextricably into all this racist mess, past and present. Michael married Elvis’s daughter – a white woman. Emmett Till whistled at a white woman. Both were destroyed – lynched for it (and for other reasons too, in Michael’s particular case of unforgivable blackness).

Emmitt Till

Emmett Till

Michael Jackson was lynched because he had the talent, money and power to change the world and he tried. He was lynched because he not only whistled at a white woman, he married one – the daughter of a white rock-and-roll icon no less. He was lynched because he had the audacity to buy and own white iconic group The Beatles, and own half of $ony. He was lynched because he had the integrity, the power, the money, the worldwide magnetism and the worldwide following to change this world and he tried. And those who benefit most from the status quo – those who profit so handsomely from the hatred, ignorance, division, and from the parasitic corporate greed under which we live – weren’t going to have any part of that being changed – especially by some black man who can sing and dance. And as soon as Michel started noticeably selling records singing and dancing in the 1970s, the media started on him, and it spiraled out of control from there. The more famous and rich and powerful Michael Jackson became, the worse the abuse and attempts at control and/or destruction became.

All Michael Jackson was ever ‘guilty‘ of was ‘Unforgivable Blackness‘, of having unprecedented talent, a heart bigger than he was, an innocent mind, and an astute knowledge and unwavering focus on his purpose here on Earth. They didn’t lynch Michael Jackson with a noose but he was damn well lynched nonetheless.

The powers that be which benefit mightily from the status-quo, from things staying just as they are, weren’t going to have any part of allowing him any of this without a fight – without making him pay for what he’d done and was trying to do; for what they saw and evidently still see as an affront to white power and social, political, legal, and economic domination in this society. Thus, the the edict was simply: Destroy Him. And so they did. Our political, legal, propaganda (media), capitalist, and social system was brought to destroy Michael Jackson emotionally, spiritually, professionally, and economically. They can’t use rope anymore or hang them from a tree. Now, they simply use different means to lynch black men these days – and some white people too if they get too close to the truth and/or have too much power to change things from the status quo.

The strange fruit still hangs from the trees in the garden of hatred, division, ignorance and greed. Not that much has changed, except the methods they use.

Martin Luther King’s dream is not realized yet. NO — Glenn Beck, you cannot “reclaim” the civil rights movement because you or this “Tea Party” were never part of it to start with, and because we are not done with it yet! The dream hasn’t yet materialized. Far, far from it.

There is so much work yet to be done. This backlash is backwards and that’s where these pitiable hungry ghosts want to go: Backwards. They want to reverse what little forward progress has been made on this issue, and as we can see it’s much less than we might wish, and much less than we might think.

If MLK’s dream had been realized, Michael Jackson might have been alive today to celebrate his 52nd birthday with his beautiful children. But it hasn’t. And just like Emmett Till, Michael Jackson was lynched – for whistling at a white woman, and then marrying her. The marriage was defined as “fake” and a “publicity stunt” by the largely white-owned and controlled media, which could not deal with the fact that a white woman and a black man could actually love one another in a romantic sense.  And just as significantly, it fed their ratings and profits to print and broadcast negative stories about Michael. The fact that he was black just made it that much easier.

Oh yes, they still lynch black people. And nothing has changed except the tools they use to do it.

Ladies and gentlemen, we are not done.  We have so much work to do, and on and in between all of Michael Jackson’s birthdays that he isn’t here to celebrate because he was lynched just like Emmett Till only with a different kind of rope and for more reasons, we need to keep that in mind.

Diane, a friend of mine, said Michael was much more than a man of “song and dance.” Michael was a heart that beat for the love of humanity.”

On Saturday August 28th, I spent 25 minutes talking to someone about these dots and how they all connected. This daft Glenn Beck thing, The Koch Brothers and their covert operation to destroy Barack Obama’s Presidency, the contrast between how Shirley Sherrod and Alan Simpson were treated and the racist and sexist connotations of that, about Emmett Till and MLK and Michael Jackson and what was done to all of them and why;  about how when you want to destroy someone you find the one thing that is most near and dear to them – and that’s where you insert the knife. For Michael, that was children. They used what he loved most to destroy him. And it was intentional. And it was because he was a billionaire black man with power and influence who loved (literally and figuratively) all races and owned the music of some of the most prominent white icons of our times – and married one of their daughters. I talked about how ever since Michael bought the $ony/ATV catalog, it seemed that $ony declared war on the entity that was Michael Jackson in order to get and keep control of that catalog of music. He was too powerful, too loved, too loving, too rich, and had too much influence – and he was unforgivably black.

When they blather on about how Michael ‘hated being black‘ and so wanted to bleach his skin: Well, it wasn’t Michael Jackson who hated his blackness or his race. It was the people accusing Michael Jackson of hating his race – who hate his race. They are the one who hated Michael Jackson’s blackness. There was, IMO a whole lotta projection going on there. They wipe their filthy racist feet on Michael Jackson, their projected hatred smeared on his face like so much shit.

By the time I was done with my little rant, someone said to me:

You know, there was a shadow of doubt in my mind about whether Michael was really innocent of the allegations against him. There was a part of me that still wasn’t sure. But now that I’ve listened to you, I am convinced he was innocent and I can see how all this ties together and it makes sense – what they did to him and why.”

I just smiled. I don’t normally talk that much. Unless I’ve got something to say. Well, I had something to say. And I changed a mind about Michael that day and made someone who was believing a lot of the media crap and propaganda about him – see the truth.

Happy Birthday Michael. It’s not much. But, it’s my gift to you.



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{ NOTE: I am personally and intentionally not a member of any political party and my political views vary depending on the issue. I call it as I see it. Period. If comments on this article become too heated or divisive I will SHUT them down. This is not a political forum. Discussion of racist treatment as pertains to Michael Jackson is allowed. Discussion of political ideologies are not. Also, THANK YOU to Diane and iJay for the awesome videos and support for this piece! -Seven }

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Aug 25 2010

14 months today, but I miss you like it just happened

Category: Children, MJ Quotes, Photos, VideosSeven @ 9:25 am

Precious Michael

Precious Michael

When children listen to music, they don’t just listen. They melt into the melody and flow with the rhythm. Something inside starts to unfold its wings – soon the child and the music are one. Do you feel the music? – Michael Jackson


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{ Thanks to my friend Helena for the beautiful video! -Seven }


Aug 23 2010

Michael dangerously underate much of his life and on tour. How could they NOT know they needed to be concerned in 2009?

Category: Family, Friends, MJ Quotes, Photos, Quotes About MJ, VideosSeven @ 10:48 pm

Michael at a Florida House

Michael at a Florida House

My friend Justice4MJJ sent me some information she had compiled on Michael’s past eating habits. I always knew he had never been a big eater, but when I read all she’d sent me, all comments from either Michael himself, his mother Katherine, or close friends or family, I was shocked. Shocked that Kenny Ortega, Randy Phillips, et al somehow thought Michael was OK to tour in 2009? Or maybe they just didn’t give a damn.

Did they really think they didn’t need to be concerned about his weight? Or that he wasn’t eating or sleeping? That he had said in the past that he could not tour anymore or it would kill him?  And on top of that the added stress and pressure of them arbitrarily adding 50 shows and nothing being prepared in time. And Randy Phillips raising Hell with Michael and pressuring him (via Ortega if not in person)?

Hello?

Does the prospect of money make people that blind and deaf?  Or, does it just make them not give a damn? Michael Jackson was a human being. Human beings need food and water and sleep to survive. Even Michael Jackson.  My God, how could they not have been aware of this or concerned about it, especially Kenny Ortega who had been on tour with Michael before?

The following is from ‘My Family, The Jacksons‘, written by Katherine Jackson:

On pg. 145, Katherine speaks about Michael’s diet & weight, even though he’s said that food was the only thing in his whole life that he had control over, everything else was controlled:

The other key to his good health, I believe, had been his diet. Before Michael had left on tour, his doctor had insisted that he go on a high protein diet, including fish, so that he’d be able to keep his stamina up. Michael had reluctantly agreed. Even before Michael became a vegetarian in the late seventies, I’d worried about his lack of interest in food. When the family would go out for hot-fudge sundaes, he’d be the only one who wouldn’t want one. “I’m not hungry“, he’d say. Now what kid turns down a hot fudge sundae? I’m ashamed to admit that sometimes La Toya and I would eat two of them a day. After Michael took Jermaine’s lead and decided to forgo meat, he became even less interested in eating then before. He employed a full time chef, but I dont know why he bothered. When she took him his food, he’d eat two tablespoons then leave the rest. “If I didnt eat to live, I’d never eat“, he told me. One day a week Michael fasted, “I’m cleaning my body out, which is a healthy thing to do“, he explained. But instead of laying low that day to conserve his energy, Micheal would dance non-stop for two hours on his portable dance floor. Michael enjoyed having the last word in our arguments about his diet. “You’re always worrying about me being too skinny”, he’d say, “but you know what? My doctor told me I was in number one shape. So stop worrying about me. I should be worried about you. You’re the one who keeps putting all the bad stuff into your body.” But the Victory tour had gotten the better of Michael physically. He suffered from exhaustion and dehydration. The memory of his illness was still fresh in his mind when his doctor laid down the law about his diet for his solo tour. I of course, hoped that after a year of eating three square meals a day, Michael had developed a permanent interest in food. But my hope was dashed the first time we talked after I joined him overseas. Happy as he was with the way the tour had gone to that point, he told me, “I’ll be glad when it’s all over, so I can start eating the way I want to again. I’m tired of forcing myself to eat.”

Michael on the cover of Vegetarian Times

Michael on the cover of Vegetarian Times

More quotes from Michael himself:

When I get upset, I stop eating, sometimes until I’m unconscious. I’m a great believer in holistic natural foods and eating and herbs and things, you know, God’s medicine, instead of Western chemicals, not those things, you know.

-Michael Jackson, 2005, in an interview with Jesse Jackson

I go through these serious food crises when I could go weeks without eating. I take stuff to keep weight on. What turns me off is that I don’t like eating anything that used to be alive and now it’s dead on my plate. I want to be a strict vegetarian, but my doctors keep trying to throw in chicken and fish.

-Michael Jackson, between August 2000, and April 2001, on tape with Rabbi Shmuley Boteach

Dick Gregory Took Care Of Michael’s Health

Dick Gregory, a nutritionist and former comedian, said in an interview to US tv show ‘Extra‘ that during the trial Michael Jackson’s weight had fallen to just 43 kilograms (94 pounds). Due to the stress and emotional strains the entertainer didn’t eat and drink enough. Because Michael’s family was very much worried, they turned to Gregory for help.

When he arrived to counsel Michael, Gregory was shocked to see how much the dehydration and not eating enough had effected the entertainer:

I got this strange call from Joe Jackson one day. He said, ‘You gotta fly out here. Michael’s been in his room for 30 days, drinking nothing but water. I was shocked when they gave him four IV drips. That’s how dehydrated he was.

Gregory then trained Michael Jackson’s personal cooks so they can mix vitamins and herbs into his food to help stabilize and build up Michael’s strength. “I took about three hours training them how to cook.”

Gregory also admitted that his client kinda collapsed after days in court when he returned to his Neverland Valley Ranch:

He was stronger at the trial than he was when he got home in the evening. That’s when he was able to collapse and deal with the pain and feel the hurt of his body. He was a zombie… He just didn’t have an appetite and he wasn’t eating. There was nothing he could do to get his appetite back.

-Dick Gregory, on Michael during the 2005 trial

Michael, from Moonwalk, page 227 – 230

When I first became well known, I had a lot of baby fat and a very round, chubby face. That roundness stayed with me until several years ago when I changed my diet and stopped eating beef, chicken, pork and fish, as well as certain fattening foods. I just wanted to look better, live better, and be healthier. Gradually, as I lost weight, my face took on its present shape and the press started accusing me of surgically altering my appearance, beyond the nose job I freely admitted I had, like many performers and film stars.
. . .

I’d like to set the record straight right now. I have never had my cheeks altered or my eyes altered. I have not had my lips thinned, not have I had dermabrasion or a skin peel. All of these chargers are ridiculous. If they were true, I would say so, but they aren’t. I have had my nose altered twice and I recently added a cleft to my chin, but that is it. Period. I don’t care what anyone else says – it’s my face and I know.

I’m a vegetarian now and I’m so much thinner. I’ve been on a strict diet for years. I feel better than I ever have, healthier and more energetic. I don’t understand why the press is so interested in speculating about my appearance anyway. What does my face have to do with my music or my dancing?

Corey Rooney and Chris Apostle, former $ony Executives, talk about Michael not eating, drinking or sleeping when he toured:

This was years ago. I’m going to go back probably eight years ago and Michael told me, ‘Cory, I can’t tour anymore. I’m not gonna tour anymore. Ok?’ I said, ‘why Mike?’ He said, ‘Because it will kill me.’ That’s what he said to me. He said, ‘It will kill me.’ Why would you say something like that? He said, ‘Well, remember when I was preparing for my concert and I passed out at the Sony Studio?’ He said, ‘Well, it’s because when I get ready for a tour I get dehydrated. I don’t eat. I don’t drink. I don’t sleep. I put so much of myself into preparing for a tour.

He said, ‘I’m not doing it on purpose. This is just something I don’t think about anymore. You understand? I’ve just become so driven that I can’t even think about these things anymore. They made me walk around with an IV last time’. He said, ‘So I just decided, my doctors decided that maybe you shouldn’t do this anymore’. He said he wanted to make the Invincible album work to the point where that was it. He’s done with the tour. He’s gonna do this Invincible album. He wanted to continue to put out albums. He said, ‘I’ll do albums till I can’t do it anymore, but I just can’t tour.

Remi Vila Real and MJ

Remi Vila Real and MJ

1984 – Brazilian Chef Remi Vila Real and Michael Jackson. Chef Remi shares her memories of Michael:

I met Quincy once at a dinner I cooked for some other musician. He loved my food and asked me if he could come and do something very important. He told me that he wanted to be Michael Jackson’s producer but every time he invited Michael to his house, Michael would never eat. He asked me if he could get Michael to eat some of my food. He said that Michael was a vegetarian and very picky about what he ate. I said I would try.

I went to Quincy’s house and there I met Michael for the first time. I took him aside and told him, “let me make you something very special. I know how to cook very healthy food from Brazil. All natural, all vegetarian. You will like it.” He agreed. I made him some black beans, collard greens, farofa and some other things and he ate four plates full!

Quincy was kissing me all night long and from that time, he has called me many times to cook for him.

I was living in West Los Angeles in a small apartment when I got a phone call. The person on the phone asked me to look outside. He said: “See the limousine? Get in it, now!” I told him I could not because I was taking care of a person off the street and could not leave him. They said that they would send someone to look after the person right away and for me to get into the car. I told them I had to change my clothes because I all dirty from cleaning. They didn’t care. Finally I agreed when the man arrived to take care of my guest and I was taken to a big building in Beverly Hills and up to the very top penthouse. It was very luxurious.

The man on the other side of the desk handed me a ticket and said “you are going to the airport right now. Here is your ticket.” I asked him why. He explained to me that Michael Jackson was having stomach aches and specifically requested me to be his “nutritionist” on the “Victory” tour. He was feeling sick to his stomach and refused to go on stage until they sent me to be his private cook. They were all very nervous. They said they were losing millions of dollars in canceled shows and I had to go right then.

I told them I could not and could only go in the morning. After a lot of arguing, the agreed to let me go home and they picked me up early in the morning and I was off to Birmingham Alabama.

I spent 8 weeks with Michael and his family on the road during the tour. It was an incredible trip I will never forget.

Michael and I became friends and I saw him number of times after that. I visited him in the hospital when his hair caught on fire and I saw him once in a while at an award’s show or party. I even cooked cooked for Michael Jackson and Elizabeth Taylor alone in Michael’s house. That was very special.

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Aug 16 2010

Now Michael is to blame for 70 lost jobs at Teva? And time he spent in Ireland is just too “strange” to believe?

Category: Justice, MJ Quotes, PhotosSeven @ 1:27 am

Love You, Michael!

"Why not just tell people I’m an alien from Mars.Tell them I eat live chickens and do a voodoo dance at midnight.They’ll believe anything you say, because you’re a reporter.” -Michael Jackson

You know, they never run out of ways to use and abuse Michael Jackson’s name.

It’s being used per usual as a cheap -n- easy magnet for increasing website traffic by the Orange County Register in California, as well as by most of the rest of the media(loids).

But this is another way I’ve been seeing it abused more often lately: Michael’s name is being hung out there as a target of blame for the loss of 70 jobs at the Teva plant where propofol is manufactured.

Of course this is pure horse-pucky. Not that the jobs are being lost because of course they are. But it is pure horse-pucky that Michael Jackson is in any way to blame for it.

The reason Teva is halting manufacture of the drug is not because Michael was murdered with it, but rather because Teva couldn’t seem to find a way to manufacture it in sanitary conditions ie: it was making people sick due to the vials being contaminated. Certainly not  Michael’s fault!

This is the lamest case of ‘blame the victim‘ I’ve seen yet in regards to Michael Jackson, besides the dirtbag “doctor” named Murray trying to blame Michael for his own murder. And the media of course will try to pin anything on Michael.

If you want to let the author of this piece of crap know (not that she doesn’t) that her tactic of abusing Michael’s name for this piece is abusive, transparent and cheap, you can contact Mary Anne Milbourn at mmilbourn@ocregister.com

Here is the truth about TEVA and propofol:

TEVA/Baxter international have close to 250 lawsuits against them, NONE of them related to Michael Jackson. The damage was done long before he passed away. Their decision to cease manufacturing and lay people off had everything to do with money!

In 2008, propofol was connected to a hepatitis C outbreak that infected as many as 114 people. Vials of propofol were allegedly used to treat more than one patient each, spreading the liver disease. Close to 250 lawsuits have been filed in connection with the outbreak.

Earlier this month, a court ordered Teva to pay $356 million to a man who said he contracted hepatitis C from a vial of propofol. Teva’s partner, Baxter International Inc., was ordered to pay $144 million. The plaintiff said Teva and Baxter encouraged unsafe reuse of the drug by selling it in unnecessarily large vials.

-SOURCE: http://www.blnz.com/news/2010/05/28/Teva_says_will_stop_making_2077.html

UPDATE:

One reader got a rather catty response from Ms. Milbourn which you can read in the comments below. She basically admits they used and abused Michael’s name to draw attention to the article, claiming “no one would have recognized the name propofol or Teva, but they do know that the drug is associated with Michael Jackson’s death. I ran the story by two editors and both said that it was OK. So you and I will have to disagree.

So, her editors OK’d the abuse of his name for the article – strictly to draw website clicks and readership. The problem is these “journalists” have been for months associating Michael Jackson with TEVA’s legal problems and blaming him for their loss of money and jobs, when Michael Jackson has not a thing to do with it! It’s cheap, greedy, abusive, disingenuous, and they need to lay off this nasty little tactic. I’m so sick of these people.

Oh, and did you know that Michael’s spending time in Ireland was SO strange it could hardly be believed, especially in the face of his “bizarre and twisted life“?

Ohhh GAWD how tiresome and overused these adjectives are when describing Michael Jackson and everything about his life, even the most normal, completely understandable and mundane things as him simply wanting to escape the press and paparazzi after his 2005 trial and get some normality and peace in his life for himself and his children.

And all done just to capitalize on his name and to attract the readership of the lowest sensation-seeking, hate-mongering public with their ignorant mob mentality when it comes to all things MJ.

Here is the story and the relevant snip:

Even in the context of the bizarre, twisted fairy tale of Michael Jackson’s life, the time he spent living in a converted cowshed in rural Ireland shortly before he died takes some believing. But in the summer of 2006 . . .

Jesus Christmas on a pogo stick, I’d have thought better of the Guardian but I guess they’ve gone tabloid along with all the rest.  You can contact them about this tiresome  (not to mention grossly unprofessional) negative definition of Michael here: reader@observer.co.uk

And if you want wonderful stories about Michael Jackson in Ireland without the negative media spin, you can of course find them here on MJJ-777.com  After clicking the link, scroll down for many, many stories, bits and pieces about Michael’s time there.

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Aug 14 2010

Dear Michael…A Letter From the Heart, by Howard McCrary

Category: Children, Family, Friends, Justice, MJ Quotes, Photos, Quotes About MJ, VideosSeven @ 11:06 am

You might find his name on some of the album credits. Grammy-nominated gospel/jazz musician and vocalist Howard McCrary and his family worked with Michael more than once through the years. On his passing, Howard wrote this letter and dedicated his and Linda McCrary’s song ‘I Love You’ to Micheal.  The video appears to have been made by Howard and Linda for all their friends, but was dedicated to Michael along with Howard’s letter below:

MJ, Bruce Swedien, Howard & Linda McCrary and ??

MJ, Bruce Swedien and the McCrarys

SOURCE: http://www.howardmccrary.com/apps/blog/ (reprinted with kind permission from Mr. McCrary)

Dear Michael,

My Daughter Sarah woke me up this morning at 7am to tell me of your passing. I was hoping this was some type of publicity stunt that only you or Houdini could pull off.

I remember the first day we met in the summer of 1979 when my family as on tour with your family. The Jacksons and The McCrarys. Did you know we used to be called The McCrary 5? Oh never mind, long story.

When my sister Charity introduced me to you with my brothers Alfred and Sam at that swanky Texas house party you asked me if I was married and I told you I was separated from my wife Chaye and we were going through a divorce. That’s when you folded your hands and said, “I will be praying for you.” Then you introduced me to your beautiful cousin Jackie and folded your hands again and said, “I’ll be praying for you.

10 minutes later you went to the other side of the room and made the praying gesture and smiled as you pointed at your cousin. I remember you doing this two more times before finally saying good night again saying “I will be praying for you.

Michael right now I am praying for you. I am praying for your beautiful parents you introduced me to at The Omni Hotel in Los Angeles on your 45th private birthday party the evening your sister Janet asked me to play ‘Triste’ and her fiancée Mr. Dupree seemed a little upset as she held both my hands to thank me from her heart for 2 or or three full minutes for playing one of her favorite songs. It was so good to see Jackie that night and Tito and Randy too. Latoya was looking so beautiful as well. Every member of your family are so beautiful and gifted. I remember meeting up with Jermaine at Cocscos and as we shopped together we would talk all about you.

Do you remember that Christmas morning at your home in Beverley Hills when you and your children wanted to hear the children sing?

Seth Riggs called me and at your request asked me to arrange a choir of 12 children to sing at your home on Christmas morning. I called my sister Charity and we contacted 12 of the best singing kids we knew, of course some of them being our own family members. We had less than 48 hours to rehearse an coordinate this private production before the children got into the limousines from me and Tammy’s home from Sherman Oaks to be convoyed to your Beverly Hills Estate.

Seth proudly was there that morning to vocalize all the young ones as I conducted as the children sang with charity accapella, ‘Heal The World, Silent Night, Santa Clause Is Coming to Town (’Jackson style)’ amongst other songs as they sang on you staircase and you and your children and family sat in that grand foyer combined with the Cathedral like acoustics I could hear additional voices of angels that morning. It was a sacred moment for us all.

As you hugged Charity and I to thank us we did a group hug with Seth and sumptuously enjoyed The Christmas Buffet you prepared for all of us. For these children it was a Christmas dream come true. If any of you children are reading this letter please share what that morning meant to you.

Your children Michael looked like cherubs. You were such a loving father.

Michael I could never understand how could the press could be so ruthless towards you. You are Michael The Angel.

I will never forget when I had the joy to work with Andre and Sandra Crouch on your Dangerous CD at Westlake Studio and we were recording the background vocals on ‘Keep The Faith‘ and as Andre was conducting we came to an impasse for over 20 minutes until Andre turned to me and said, “Howard fix it!

So I gave out the parts to the ascending figure of the word ‘FAITH‘ leading to the release and you jumped up and down in the control room saying, “I Love It!

It was that day you invited me up to the green room with my son Darius who was 12 years old at that time. He was part of a new TV sitcom called Family Matters and you told him, “I hear you have been hanging out with Bobby Brown, he is not a good influence. Here take my number and call me anytime. If you need someone to talk to or spend time with, I’ll be there. The only thing is when you call don’t ask for me or they won’t put you through, ask for Norma Jean, it’s the code name.”

For the rest of that day at West Lake Studios he spent with you and was in heaven.

All the way home he held your private phone number in his hands aglow and raving about his new awesome friend. As soon as we got home he asked if he could call you and I said yes of course. So very excitedly Darius dialed the number and ask for Michael…click! Then he remembered the code name, called back and asked for Norma Jean…click!

Even still to this day he talks about that wonderful day he spent with you at the studio and learned the lesson of how important it is to follow instructions.

Once again and lastly when you went to trial in Santa Barbara and it seemed like the whole world turned their backs on you, at another session producer Bruce Swedien pulled my sister Linda and I to the side and said, “Howard and Linda , don’t believe The Press. Michael is an angel… he would never hurt the children.

I never stopped believing in you or the pure soul that you are. I remember when you thanked my sister Charity and I for bringing 10 busloads of ministers and some of their members to support you during your trial at The Santa Barbara Courthouse. We had singers singing on behalf of your innocence and ministers interceding on your behalf for justice.

Thank you for graciously hosting all of us at Neverland not once but twice as we came to show you how much we loved you and believed in your innocence.

It is an outrage what some people will do for money. Greed, Delusion, and Anger is something you wanted to see our world healed of. Michael it’s not too late. I know there are others like myself who believe in your dream that we can have a better world if we only Keep The Faith.

As I began writing this letter the sun was shining in Hong Kong and now as I close we are in a Typhoon…strange but Michael…I am not surprised you were always bigger than life and now we know that you are.

You and your music, your smile, your dance, but most of all your message will live in our hearts forever.

You not only are ‘The King of Pop’, you are also…‘The King of Hearts’

We Love You Michael!

-With Love, Howard

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Aug 11 2010

“We can’t leave when there are still people in line. It’s Christmas, dude.”

Category: Children, Humanitarian, MJ Quotes, Photos, Quotes About MJSeven @ 7:16 am

Some of you have seen this story before. Some of you haven’t. Either way, it’s a heartwarming read.  In December, 1996, Gwen Carino was a PR officer at Manila Hotel, and was assigned to head the annual Orphan’s Christmas Party where 300 children from different orphanages around Metro Manila were treated to a day of fun and surprises.  It was a big project, to be sure, and the fact that Michael Jackson found out about the event and asked to help added to the pressure (and joy!) of Gwen’s job that day!

Below, Gwen tells the story about Michael’s love and graciousness during this event (emphasis mine):

SOURCE:  http://www.philstar.com/Article.aspx?articleId=483815&publicationSubCategoryId=70

by By Gwen J. Cariño

MJChristmasManila1996

Handing out a loot bag to a boy during the Orphan‘s Christmas Party held at Manila Hotel on December 1996

MANILA, Philippines – When I was a PR officer at Manila Hotel, I was assigned to head the annual Orphan’s Christmas Party where 300 children from different orphanages around Metro Manila were treated to a day of fun and surprises. It was one of the biggest projects on my plate and it was such a challenge to focus on work the day before the big event, knowing Michael Jackson was billeted in the hotel.

Two nights before, I had been fortunate to be part of his welcome line at the hotel lobby together with the rest of the PR and sales staff but was content enough to see him walk by.

The day before, a guy claiming to be Michael Jackson’s aide from Mamarao Productions came to the office. I couldn’t recall his name but he looked for the “person in charge” and said his boss had read the announcement about the event in the Dear Guest flyers we had circulated to all the rooms a week before. Michael wanted to know how he could help. His aide went up to the Penthouse and down to the PR office several times after we gave our suggestions.

Michael offered to fill up the 300 loot bags with goodies and toys, candies and chocolates. But after getting close to 50 sponsors, it was actually a problem for us to dispose of everything.

So I thought hard…how can the King of Pop meaningfully join the affair? I couldn’t possibly have him be with the kids in the palayok game or the pabitin as he might end up being mobbed! And since the annual event was really all about giving, I mustered all my courage and told the Mamarao guy that the best thing I could think of was for Michael to literally be present to help distribute the loot bags, sign autographs and pose with the children for photos. “Wow, that may not be easy. You’re talking about handing goodie bags to 300 children and I can just imagine the chaos. We’ll see, Ms. Jacinto. I’ll get back to you,” he said.

Lunch break came and it was the most hurried one I ever took in my entire life. It wasn’t until after 5 p.m. that Michael‘s aide came back and said, “Michael is more than happy to do whatever you suggest. How do we go about it tomorrow?

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I wanted to scream. I had to calm myself and regain composure as the Lizzie Maguire in me said, “Get real, get back into focus.

We agreed that Michael would join after the games, musical program and snacks, and at the last part to give out the loot bags. My colleague Annette Africano and boss Dulce Agnir requested for additional security around the garden and the stage area as this was where we decided to distribute the gifts. We made sure the children would form an orderly line.

Then the moment arrived. It was at the Champagne Gardens on Dec. 7, 1996. I was surprised to see him walking towards us, guided by his aide. Michael came up to me as I had to brief him.

Hi, how are you? Thanks so much for letting me in, I know I’m early ’coz I didn’t want to miss the program.

I said, “Are you kidding? Thanks so much for volunteering! Here’s what Michael, why don’t you just sit here and watch the musical numbers before we get into the gift giving. I will have to tweak the program a bit.”

He replied, “Sure, anything you say… (pausing to look at my name tag) Gwen!

I was stunned at how incredibly sweet and modest he was. And in my mind it was, “Oh my God, this is really happening!

Amazing how he patiently sat through the whole program. Carol Banawa, then an Ang TV mainstay couldn’t believe MJ was watching her perform. She had her red blouse signed by him right after her number. Then followed Stefano Mori’s dance number. Later, his back up singers and dancers came up on stage followed by select kids from different orphanages who danced to the beat of Billie Jean. Oh, the smile on Michael’s face was just amazing.

Then we announced that Michael will be distributing gifts onstage. I explained to him that there’s a loot bag for the younger kids and another for the older ones and he nodded. The thrill and excitement he gave those children was incredibly touching. It was in between the gift bag distribution that I caught a glimpse of MJ, not as a performer but as a person.

It was one in the afternoon. Santa Claus (David Endriga, a friend of fellow PR officer Francis Capistrano) was with us. The heat was scourging and I was worried that Michael felt so hot with his black long-sleeved signature attire and hat.

Are you alright Michael? We can let you take a break,” I asked.

He said,I’m cool Gwen. Just imagine how Santa feels inside his velvet suit and beard. We’ll be fine.

I never heard him complain or say a word about how hot it was or how long the line was. He had the most beautiful manners. He didn’t even ask for a drink or a towel to wipe his sweat but one of our banquet staff made sure he got a glass of fresh orange juice.

An hour passed and we were halfway through gift-giving when we noticed that the garden was getting filled up. Suddenly, there were people from media, politicians, officials and hotel guests including those in a wedding reception at the nearby Champagne Room who deserted the newly-weds just to get a glimpse of the King of Pop.

Oh oh, this isn’t supposed to be, I’m so sorry,” I said.It’s all right, we’ll get through it,” Michael said smiling.

As we finished giving out the last loot bag to an 11-year-old orphan, a new line of more kids and adults formed. Michael’s bodyguard, Wayne, said. “We can leave now.

Michael replied calmly,We can’t leave when there are still people in line. It’s Christmas, dude.

I felt my heart beat faster and the hair on my arms and the back of my neck stood up. He wasn’t just the most electrifying performer, but the most generous person.

One of the most memorable moments was when a lady came up to him for an autograph. Laughing and holding his tummy, he said “Hey Gwen, you’ve gotta check this out.” He whispered, “It’s a blank check. The lady is making me sign on a blank check.

We laughed hard and little did we know that it wasn’t even half of the comedy. He later showed me and Wayne other stuff people would use or pick up on the ground when they couldn’t find paper for him to sign on. One lady made him sign at the back of her elegant, designer Filipiniana gown. One teenager came up to him holding a dead leaf and another one, a popped balloon. Imagine how our laughter ballooned as well.

It was an amazing, genuine experience. At one point he asked if I was going to catch his History concert and I said “tomorrow night.

Oh, you’ll have a blast!” Michael told me.

At this point he became concerned about the stage as adults outnumbered the kids. His face had nervousness written all over it but he still didn’t complain. He tapped the wooden floor with his foot several times making sure it was sturdy enough not to fall apart. “I’ve experienced the stage collapse and I just want to make sure we’re all safe here,” he explained.

Half of me wanted the line to finish because we were literally melting and worried about our safety, but half of me didn’t, knowing that once the line ended, Michael will leave.

At some point it did end. I managed to get an autograph for my sisters and me before our general manager, Clem Pablo, requested him to sing Give Love on Christmas Day.

Cesar Sarino, one of the hotel’s officials, addressed his thank you note to the King of Pop. Then I saw his guards and aides whisking Michael off stage.

I said in my mind, “Oh man, I didn’t even have the chance to say goodbye.”

Suddenly, I saw Michael return on stage and say, “Thanks so much to you and your team, Gwen. This really means a lot.

Then he held me beside him and said, “I’ll see you at the concert.

As Michael Jackson is laid to rest and returned to pristine condition in the afterlife, these two incredible acts of the King of Pop — volunteering for charity and unselfishly spending time with the less fortunate, will forever be the way I will remember this man.

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Aug 10 2010

Michael couldn’t cook, but he was a gourmet when it came to nourishing with love

Category: Art, Books, Children, Family, MJ Quotes, PhotosSeven @ 4:10 am

I’ve been told Michael was not a very good cook. In fact, a story was related to me that he almost burnt a place down in Florida while trying to make grilled cheese sandwiches for his kids. But when it came to nourishing and healing children with love, Michael was an absolute gourmet!  Michael was a believer in families having meals together when possible. We know he had meals with his children whenever he could (but someone else did the cooking-safer that way!).

I’ve recently been made aware of a heartwarming cookbook introduction that Michael wrote in 1993 for a family cookbook called ‘Pigtails and Froglegs‘. The book was published by Neiman-Marcus and illustrated by legendary Warner Bros. Cartoon artist Chuck Jones.  Below is what Michael wrote for this book:

Pigtails and Froglegs

Pigtails and Froglegs

To a child, food is something special. It isn’t just a delicious taste or the vitamins that build a healthy body. Food is love and caring, security and hope — all the things that a food family can provide. Remember when you were little and your mother made a pie for you? When she cut a slice and put it on your plate, she was giving you a bit of herself, in the form of her love. She made your hunger go away, and when you were full and satisfied, everything seemed all right. Because that satisfied feeling was in the pie, you were nourished from a deep level. Food is something we all need physically, but so is love, the deeper nourishment, that turns into who we are.

Think about how necessary it is to nourish a child with a bit of yourself when you use this book. It is full of delicious things. Every recipe has an extra ingredient of caring, because the people who wrote them were thinking of the children. They were specially thinking of those who aren’t able to take nourishment for granted because they are poor, sick or disabled. These are the children who need food to heal. The theme of ‘Heal the World’, which has been close to my heart, is the central theme of this book, also. Here are recipes for the spirit. Please make them with that in mind. Your child is growing spirit that can be knit strong with love. When you break an egg and measure a cup of flour, you are magically mixing the gift of life. The food’s proteins and minerals will turn into bones and muscles, but your feeling as you cook will turn directly into a soul.

It makes me happy to think that the needs of children’s spirits are at last becoming important in this world. Children have no power to end wars directly or to mend age-old differences.

All they can do is be themselves, to shine with gratitude and joy when love is turned their way. Yet isn’t that ultimately the greatest power? In the eyes of a child you become the source of joy, which lifts you into the special category of caregiver and life-provider. You may think that your apple pie has only sugar and spice in it. A child is wiser — with the first bite, he knows that this special dish is the essence of your love.

Enjoy!

— Michael Jackson, 1993

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Aug 07 2010

He loved magic, beauty and babies…

Category: Friends, MJ Quotes, Photos, Quotes About MJ, VideosSeven @ 3:28 pm

I’ve mentioned before how much Michael loved babies. So much so that they had “Baby picture day” in the studio regularly. And, Michael had a taste for magic, beautiful art and classical music, particularly Debussy. Here are a few more heartwarming personal stories of different encounters with Michael involving a baby, the beauty of classical music, magic, and Michael’s great appreciation for all of them as well as his expressions of love and true affection for the people in his life.

Michael and Elijah

Michael and Elijah

David Wallechinsky of HuffingtonPost shares his story of how Michael, having recently gone vegetarian, was fascinated with the progression of David’s wife’s pregnancy, and how excited he was to meet little Elijah, and how Michael told David that one of the things he wanted most in life was to be a father and have his own child to take care of:

It was just by coincidence that I became acquainted with Michael Jackson. It was 1983 and my wife, Flora, was pregnant with our first child. Frequently, we ate at a vegetarian restaurant called The Golden Temple. Generally we went during the hours between lunch and dinner. There were few other customers during that time period, but there was one other regular: Michael Jackson. He had recently become a vegetarian, and he was fascinated to follow the progress of a vegetarian pregnancy. When our son, Elijah, was born in June, Michael was excited to see him. Once he asked me what it was like to be a father, and he told me that that was what he wanted most of all in life: to have a child of his own to take care of. Even then, there was something poignant about this man who had not been allowed to be a normal child himself wanting to be a father.

-David Wallechinsky

Next, Mona Lisa Mouallem shares a story about the greatest moment of her life, when she got to play piano for Michael Jackson.

Here’s the relevant excerpt:

Michael and my dad became friendly when he moved to New York in 2001 to record his album, Invincible. While I am well aware of the many controversies that surrounded Michael Jackson’s life, they had no bearing on the evenings that my family and I got to spend with him. My family was lucky enough to get to know him and his beautiful, lovely children, away from the flash of cameras and the chants of fans.

So, we were finishing up a home-cooked meal at my parents’ apartment and Michael, who knew I had played the piano since I was a child, asked me to play a piece for him. Of course I said yes, and of course it all seemed so surreal. I sat down at the piano and thought “How on earth does one entertain Michael Jackson? What could I possibly play for him?” I chose a Debussy piece – Deux Arabesques. It was the longest four minutes of my life, the most famous entertainer in the world listening intently with his eyes closed. As I finished the piece, I looked up at him for his reaction. My heart was POUNDING. My hands were visibly shaking. His eyes were still closed. He was silent. He then opened his eyes and said with enormous humility and a deep sincerity that still rings in my ear to this day, “Mona, thank you for that. Thank you thank you thank you.”

It was at that moment that I understood how unique this man was. He, the “King of Pop”, was sitting in the same living room where my brother and I had danced to his music videos in our childhood. And there he was, listening to me play with the same attentiveness that he would have given a concert pianist. And he listened, all the while playing wistfully with his daughter Paris’ hair, making sure she and her brother, Prince Michael, were listening, too. It was the first, strong indication of a truth that would be reinforced by other moments with Michael. With all the fame and fortune he had amassed, with all the clout he had in the industry, at the end of the day what mattered to him were the very fundamentals of life. He was kind, loving and incredibly modest. He absolutely adored his children and was zealous about raising them as good souls. He had tremendous respect and love for all kinds of music – pop, rock, classical, jazz – regardless of who was playing and where. And he was genuinely interested in the lives of others, and would gladly take a step back to let them shine, even if it was for only four minutes.

-Mona Lisa Mouallem

Here’s a beautiful YouTube video of Debussy’s Deux Arabesque, along with some stunning nature scenery. Very enjoyable and very beautiful. I’m sure Michael would have loved this!:

And finally, Siegfried Fischbacher of Siegfried and Roy, shared his grief back in 2009 about losing Michael and how much Michael loved magic. Michael was one of the duo’s biggest celebrity fans and a frequent visitor to the show, where he was dually enamored of the entertainers’ white tigers and trailblazing illusions onstage.

Siegfried related:

He was a good, good friend, one of the finest entertainers. He wrote music for us when we really needed him to do that. I remember us talking to him about needing a song, and he just said, “Let me write it, no questions asked”. It was such a gesture of friendship. I last saw him about a month ago at the Wynn hotel with Kenny Ortega. Michael, he was always interested in magic. We were just talking about how we designed magic in our show — he was in love with our show.

When asked if Jackson seemed in ill health at the time of that meeting in Las Vegas, and Siegfried only shook his head. “It gets me upset. It is hard, what I read in the papers about him. First Danny Gans, now this. I’m just so sad about all of it.”

Jackson’s unreleased “Mind Is Magic” is the Siegfried & Roy theme song, and his was the final voice heard in the S&R performances at The Mirage. ‘Mind is the Magic‘ was written by Michael with Bryan Loren in 1989, and reworked for the German illusionists (who had also worked with Michael on his Bad World Tour) as the theme song for their ‘Beyond Belief Show‘, staged in Las Vegas. It remained unreleased until 1995, when Michael gave his permission for the song’s inclusion on Siegfried & Roy’s German album, ‘Dreams & Illusions‘ (no USA or UK release), which featured music from their show and a TV special.


Aug 03 2010

“I needed someone” . . . “Because I wanted to be loved”

Category: MJ Quotes, Photos, Quotes About MJ, VideosSeven @ 2:47 am

He only wanted to be loved

He only wanted to be loved

If I sharpen my craft, maybe people will love me.”  • ”I’d sit in my hotel room and cry.” • ”You wanna be somewhere. . . You wanna be with someone.”  -Michael Jackson

I’ve written before about how so much of what Michael did was for love. Pleasing people and making them happy was a way that he felt he would be loved and he did that by entertaining them. As a child, performing well was all he could do to earn his father’s approval – or at least to escape his stern punishment and disapproval.  As child and an adult, the loneliness of superstardom combined with the burning need to feel lovable and loved (which he didn’t get as a child) and which he probably felt he ‘earned‘ by being the best entertainer that ever lived, made his life very lonely and painful at times. Besides the observations of sentient others such as Robert Hillburn, Michael’s own words are testimony to this, and I want to share more of them with you here.

Below is audio and video where Michael himself talks about the loneliness he suffered, and the love he so badly longed for.  The first piece is from what I believe are Rabbi Schmuley’s tapes as well as perhaps some other interviews. The parts from Schmuley’s tapes are likely found in Schmuley’s book as well, which is based on the tapes. I would urge readers NOT to buy that book, but to obtain the free online PDF file of Michael’s comments without Schmuley’s commentary, instead.

The second piece is from that horrible Martin Bashir debacle, and is some footage that was shot by Michael’s own cameraman (Hamid Moslehi) during the time Bashir was with Michael. The footage was unreleased at the time, apparently.


Robert Hillburn, from my previous piece, talks about how he noticed this in Michael at a very young age. Hillburn says:

Michael struck me as one of the most fragile and lonely people I’ve ever met. His heart may have finally stopped beating Thursday afternoon, but it had been broken long ago.

There’s often a gap between a performer’s public and private sides, but rarely was it as noticeable as with Michael.

Sitting at the rear of the tour bus after a triumphant concert in St. Louis in 1981, Michael was anxious, frequently bowing his head as he whispered answers to my questions. In contrast to the charismatic, strutting figure on stage, he wrestled with a Bambi-like shyness. Despite the resurgence in his popularity, he complained of feeling alone — almost abandoned. He was 23.

When I asked why he didn’t live on his own like his brothers, rather than at his parents’ house, he said, “Oh, no, I think I’d die on my own. I’d be so lonely. Even at home, I’m lonely. I sit in my room and sometimes cry. It is so hard to make friends, and there are some things you can’t talk to your parents or family about. I sometimes walk around the neighborhood at night, just hoping to find someone to talk to. But I just end up coming home.”

During our time together, my conversations with Michael sometimes led — once the tape recorder was off — to darker moments from his past. One night when we were going through a stack of old photos, a picture of him in his late teens triggered a sudden openness.

“Ohh, that’s horrible,” he said, recoiling from the picture.

Michael explained that his face was so covered with acne and his nose so large at that time that visitors to the family home in Encino sometimes wouldn’t recognize him. “They would come up, look me straight in the eye and ask if I knew where that ‘cute little Michael’ was.” It was as if the “whole world was saying, ‘How dare you grow up on us.’ “

Michael said he started looking down at the floor when people approached or would stay in his room when visitors came to the house.

Michael vowed to do whatever it took to make people “love me again. The rejection fueled his ambition to be the biggest pop star in the world and to try to make his face beautiful. Unfortunately, Michael’s need was so great that no amount of love seemed to be enough.

The stage was his sanctuary. There, he was larger than life and no one could threaten him. Every time he left the stage, he said, he felt vulnerable again.

-Robert Hillburn

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Aug 01 2010

‘Believe in your Ideals Because you are God sent’

Category: MJ Quotes, PhotosSeven @ 5:24 am

Michael's note to Travis Payne

Michael's note to Travis Payne

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