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Missing - Michael
It’s been thirteen months since Michael left here. You’d think that after that much time, I’d stop feeling like something’s missing.
It’s like leaving the house to go on a trip, with the nagging feeling that you’ve somehow forgotten something. Except the feeling never goes away and the trip never ends. I’m still in a daze, wondering how my world manages to go on spinning without the piece that is missing – without having Michael in the world, somewhere, anywhere. I know it’ll never feel right again. And I know at some point, I’ll learn to just live with that. But it won’t be today.
And I know he’s an angel and I could call him by laughing, but right now, the ache and the sadness still remains.
I’m sorry Michael, for not supporting you enough when you were here, and for hurting too much and for too long, now that you’re gone.
© 25 June 2010, Seven
July 27th, 2010 4:35 pm
As strange as this may initially sound, I hope this sense of loss never goes away. It seems we REALLY FEEL things for a short while, then complacency and “busines as usual” sets in and we “move on”. You can already feel that the world has “moved on” from all of this, can’t you? There is nothing even going on with his murder trial. How can that be??? It’s like the whole world has kicked everything Michael under the rug and labeled it “whatever”. I actually want to keep feeling this as crazy as that sounds. It’s the pain that DRIVES me to keep researching, to keep learning how to really FEEL him, and to keep persuing what I can now do for HIM each day for all he has done for me.
July 27th, 2010 4:44 pm
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=id-3JqMTnsc&feature=related
Janet’s 2006 Interview with Oprah.
The ugly spirited talk show host tried to get dirt on Michael’s trial. Pathetic
July 27th, 2010 5:45 pm
What is missing, what we are feeling, our emotions, the deep agonizing abyss of loss, grief, hopelessness, helplessness, emptiness, loneliness, sadness, is in knowing that this most beautiful essence and godlike of a man who left this earth, was the perfect specimen of what God wanted all his human creatures to be like. We long for the man, our mate, the perfect idea what all women wanted and needed; trust, kindness, thoughtfulness, gentleness, patience, understanding. He encompassed all our desires. I truly believe this with all my heart. He was an Adam of sorts, a perfect man in our world, who sacrificed his life for our good. To show us that the darkness still remains and how much more work there is to be done in order to create a planet of peace, love and unity. He died at the hands of the wicked one as Jesus did. Our pain will remain until justice is served. Perhaps not in our lifetime, when the true judge of this planet with judge every man for his wicked deeds. And then, we will be united again. We will see Michael, and he will be happy. He was named Michael for a larger cause. Michael mean Archangel, who is a guardian over his faith. So we must have faith like his did, no matter how hard it becomes, no matter how painful it becomes, we must continue his work of love. And hopefully, then, we might heal just a little bit The pain might subside just enough to lessen of suffering so we can go on and live a productive lives as he would have wanted us to do.
Please know this is only my own thoughts and is not meant to lessen anybody’s grief or suffering because I myself have all those emotions and know how hard it is day by day.
We love Michael and nothing will ever change that. Nobody can ever change his legacy and what he stood for. We know the truth and he is now watching over us as he was meant to do since the beginning.
July 27th, 2010 11:28 pm
Thank you Earthgirl. Your words really blessed me. Michael is not gone just because he no longer has a body. Consciousness is eternal and the hand does not die just because you remove the glove. We are all interconnected on a permanent basis. Michael was fully aware of this and in his profound poem “HEAVEN IS HERE” states, “YOU AND I WERE NEVER SEPARATE. It’s (separation) just an illusion, wrought by the magical lens of perception.” He is still here, and stronger than ever, because now he is free. Just because we can’t “see” him any longer is part of the “perception” he speaks of.
July 28th, 2010 10:33 pm
I absolutely share the feelings of all Michael’s fans. I too feel so isolated with my deep feelings of love and respect for him that those around me do not share. Thank God for this website and thank God for the gift of Michael. I don’t know when, or if, it will ever stop feeling like something is missing. That is because something tremendous in all our lives is no longer here with us. This man was a magnificent symbol of God’s love and inspiration for all mankind and what we have lost is almost impossible to bear. Why do so many of us feel so distraught and empty without him even though we have never even met him in our lifetime? I believe it is because Michael was the greatest human being and artist we have ever known! There are not enough words of praise that I can find that can do justice to what an outstanding person he was in every way. His love, humility, kindness, generosity, talent and artistry were indescribable, not to mention the depth of inspiration he left for us all to be like him. I truly feel that it will be a long, long time before we stop feeling like something is missing, because someone wonderful and beautiful has left us all way too soon and so unexpectedly. My tears and the tears of all Michael’s fans are still falling because our hearts are broken, not only because of the sudden death of our angel, but because of all the hatred, lies and greed that destroyed this absolutely magnificent creation of God. Where is the justice? I want to see it in my lifetime for the sake of his children, his family and all his fans worldwide. The entire planet has a tremendous hole in its heart because we truly loved and needed our Michael so very, very much. I know he is finally at peace, a peace that eluded him for his entire life and no one can ever hurt him again, ever. God is watching over our beloved angel and watching over all of us and those who played any part in the suffering and destruction of this magnificent creation of God, named Michael Jackson, will have to answer to Him. Rest in peace, sweet angel and may you be granted everlasting life. I hope and pray to be with you one day in heaven where we can all be happy and rejoice together with the Lord.
July 29th, 2010 6:30 pm
Seven,
Although I never post here I have to tell you this is a wonderful place, a place of Love!
I am always mesmerized at your words, today particularly with your text that sums up all our feelings” When does it stop feeling like something’s missing?” I wish it never would…so that we always remembered that our most important work is a work of LOVE
And Ellen I think you’ve just found the perfect definition of Michael: ” A magnificent creation of God!” May he rest in his arms
August 1st, 2010 10:03 am
I’ve also been wondering for the past few weeks when and if this feeling of utter loss will ever fade. I’ve often told my close friends that I feel as though a part of me went with Michael. Since 25 June, 2009 the feeling never leaves me of something missing, something out of sync, something “not right” in the World. I’ve gone through my life each day since then in a sort of daze, with most of my mind distracted by the constant sadness I feel. I go through my days as usual, at times feeling happy and at peace. Then, a voice in my head says: “But Michael is gone”, and its as though a grey curtain is once again drawn over my life. This beautiful, kind, generous, phenomenally talented artistic genius of a man, who gave so much of himself for his Art and for the World, was not granted the gift of a long and happy life. Instead, he was persecuted and maligned for decades, until his heart and spirit and body could no longer endure it. It was the ulimate injustice, and it is what continues to make me so very, very sad about Michael’s passing.